MAKE A DIFFERENCE FOR SAMEENA AND SCOTT AND CHANGE YOUR LIFE AT THE SAME TIME
April 4th, 2017 was the day I first confessed to Scott that I wanted to end my life. Scott listened to me without judgment that day, and helped me understand that the source of my suicidal ideations was that I was isolating and craved human connection...
EVERYTHING THAT YOU ARE ABOUT TO READ BELOW IS WHAT SCOTT DIID/CREATED FOR ME - My Journey Since 2016-2017 And there is a whole story supported by a video of why Scott did what he did for me.
I needed daily human connection every morning to interrupt my destructive and suicidal thought patterns.
Scott negotiates a deal with me telling me that I can have access to his studio every morning for free on the condition that - instead of paying him money for his services - that I pay him by making and keeping a daily promise to him.
People have often asked me why is the platform called 1111.
Scott came up with the name because he knew that I was sleeping in a lot due to being very depressed, so he felt 11:11 am was late enough in the morning that I would have no excuse - even with my deep depression to accomplish the promise by that time and also because he knew the number 1111 would be more memorable from a marketing perspective to both myself and in terms of attracting guests.
Looking back it seems to a lot of people that Scott naming it 1111 was a brilliant marketing strategy YET he never cared about the number of views.
For Scott it was all about just getting me a guest in the studio to talk to and he knew that for him to accomplish his mission of supporting me in getting a guest every single day, we would have to give them something of value to them which would be a platform to not only connect with me but also simultaneously connect with their facebook friends at the same time through his facebook live streaming studio.
11:11 was born out of Scott’s passion to be of maximum service to humanity by helping me out of depression. In Scott's world, he was fighting for my life - he was doing everything he knew to do to help me find a reason to live.
I see my self-worth and value now - not only as a human being - but also as a business woman and it's all because of Scott's consistent faith and belief in me.
You might say that everything I'm now doing was inspired by the difference Scott made in my life and which I now wish to make for many others.
In the first 90 days after 11:11 was created, Scott was blown away by the generosity of all the people (about 60) who came to connect with me on 1111, knowing that they could not promote directly or indirectly or sell anything.
And out of his appreciation to all those 1111 guests who made a difference for me in transforming my emotional state and bringing me permanently out of my depression, what Scott knew he did not have the power to do alone, he created Passion Projects Light as a thank you gift which was exclusive to guests who came on 1111.
Before I became known in my local town and online where people knew me as 'that 1111 girl who has that 'show' from doing 300+ episodes of 1111 in 90 days, I was a grief counselor and a social worker at a local charity.
In 2016, I stuck up for my rights to my and the rights of other employees to my former employer at this local charity.
When you are an employee, many organizations, such as my previous place of employment, hate it when you question their authority.
And as a result, I found myself in the situation where I knew I couldn’t work in the system again.
I loved my work and my clients, and after having lost the ability to do my work ever again, I became very depressed, and even had suicidal ideations.
The purity of human connection, and one person helping another person freely with "an entire absence of profit motive".
The things I needed, were hope, a purpose, and human connection. He created 1111 for me for that reason.
To force me to get that human connection and interaction I missed so terribly after leaving my profession entirely.
And in less then 90 days, 1111 (Platform) took a life of its own. In other words, what was first created for me grew into something even bigger and more meaningful where it wasn't about me anymore.
We didn’t create 11:11 to talk about business and projects and plans. This was meant to be a pure moment of human connection, an exchange of experience, a touch of reality, a break from the pressures of society that hold us down.
The agreement required that I either have a guest in the studio and broadcast live on their Facebook timeline by 11:11am, OR that I broadcast live on my own timeline until someone connected with me by starting a conversation.
In return for honoring this agreement, I received a maximum of 2 hours of Scott’s time the following day (whether it be producing my broadcast in the background, running the cameras, consulting or coaching with me or my guests).
I was able to offer this opportunity freely with so many people that came into 1111 for free, including for my other services like Passion Projects Light and 1111 Turnaround sessions.
All this was freely given by me since I was using my 2 hours with Scott at my discretion.
BUT if I ever missed even one single day, the agreement was null, and I would no longer be able to earn any of Scott’s time.
Guests who have been on 1111 could come onto this other platform which gave them an opportunity to talk about whatever they want without any restrictions and conditions. They could talk about or promote their passion(s) or passion projects, etc., and it was also for free.
After my well-being was solid and it was clear that I was no longer depressed nor did I have suicidal ideations, Scott had a long heart to heart talk with me.
He shared with me that one day I will have to let 1111 go (and share it with others) since I am well now, and 1111 is not making money. And I was very resistant and reluctant in one day having to let 1111 go, but I knew Scott was looking out for me as he knew that I could never make money from it directly.
And after I kind of embraced the thought that I will need to let go of 1111 eventually one day, the very next day I have a guest come in for 1111.
And Scott strongly feels that this person will make a perfect guest host for 1111 and she will most likely want to do it, he feels everything about them is a yes.
After our 1111 conversation, Scott comes out and asks my guest if they would like to be a guest host of 1111, but he did say that he couldn’t commit, it was ultimately my decision.
And it was so evident that this person would be the perfect fit. It was really hard at first letting 1111 go; I would get emotional at first at just the thought of having to let it go.
But I trusted Scott. I was emotionally well enough at the time - and Scott felt it would soon be time for me to start addressing my financial well-being - and 1111 would not make me any money as that is not what it was created for. And with Scott’s guidance and continuous support, I let go of 1111.
This video captured in the moment shows how hard it was for me at the time to let it go. And of course, I am not in this emotional place or state of mind anymore. This video is a part of time, where it documents one of those significant events in my journey.
EVERYTHING THAT YOU ARE ABOUT TO READ BELOW IS WHAT SCOTT DIID/CREATED FOR ME - My Journey Since 2016-2017 And there is a whole story supported by a video of why Scott did what he did for me.
I needed daily human connection every morning to interrupt my destructive and suicidal thought patterns.
Scott negotiates a deal with me telling me that I can have access to his studio every morning for free on the condition that - instead of paying him money for his services - that I pay him by making and keeping a daily promise to him.
People have often asked me why is the platform called 1111.
Scott came up with the name because he knew that I was sleeping in a lot due to being very depressed, so he felt 11:11 am was late enough in the morning that I would have no excuse - even with my deep depression to accomplish the promise by that time and also because he knew the number 1111 would be more memorable from a marketing perspective to both myself and in terms of attracting guests.
Looking back it seems to a lot of people that Scott naming it 1111 was a brilliant marketing strategy YET he never cared about the number of views.
For Scott it was all about just getting me a guest in the studio to talk to and he knew that for him to accomplish his mission of supporting me in getting a guest every single day, we would have to give them something of value to them which would be a platform to not only connect with me but also simultaneously connect with their facebook friends at the same time through his facebook live streaming studio.
11:11 was born out of Scott’s passion to be of maximum service to humanity by helping me out of depression. In Scott's world, he was fighting for my life - he was doing everything he knew to do to help me find a reason to live.
I see my self-worth and value now - not only as a human being - but also as a business woman and it's all because of Scott's consistent faith and belief in me.
You might say that everything I'm now doing was inspired by the difference Scott made in my life and which I now wish to make for many others.
In the first 90 days after 11:11 was created, Scott was blown away by the generosity of all the people (about 60) who came to connect with me on 1111, knowing that they could not promote directly or indirectly or sell anything.
And out of his appreciation to all those 1111 guests who made a difference for me in transforming my emotional state and bringing me permanently out of my depression, what Scott knew he did not have the power to do alone, he created Passion Projects Light as a thank you gift which was exclusive to guests who came on 1111.
Before I became known in my local town and online where people knew me as 'that 1111 girl who has that 'show' from doing 300+ episodes of 1111 in 90 days, I was a grief counselor and a social worker at a local charity.
In 2016, I stuck up for my rights to my and the rights of other employees to my former employer at this local charity.
When you are an employee, many organizations, such as my previous place of employment, hate it when you question their authority.
And as a result, I found myself in the situation where I knew I couldn’t work in the system again.
I loved my work and my clients, and after having lost the ability to do my work ever again, I became very depressed, and even had suicidal ideations.
The purity of human connection, and one person helping another person freely with "an entire absence of profit motive".
The things I needed, were hope, a purpose, and human connection. He created 1111 for me for that reason.
To force me to get that human connection and interaction I missed so terribly after leaving my profession entirely.
And in less then 90 days, 1111 (Platform) took a life of its own. In other words, what was first created for me grew into something even bigger and more meaningful where it wasn't about me anymore.
We didn’t create 11:11 to talk about business and projects and plans. This was meant to be a pure moment of human connection, an exchange of experience, a touch of reality, a break from the pressures of society that hold us down.
The agreement required that I either have a guest in the studio and broadcast live on their Facebook timeline by 11:11am, OR that I broadcast live on my own timeline until someone connected with me by starting a conversation.
In return for honoring this agreement, I received a maximum of 2 hours of Scott’s time the following day (whether it be producing my broadcast in the background, running the cameras, consulting or coaching with me or my guests).
I was able to offer this opportunity freely with so many people that came into 1111 for free, including for my other services like Passion Projects Light and 1111 Turnaround sessions.
All this was freely given by me since I was using my 2 hours with Scott at my discretion.
BUT if I ever missed even one single day, the agreement was null, and I would no longer be able to earn any of Scott’s time.
Guests who have been on 1111 could come onto this other platform which gave them an opportunity to talk about whatever they want without any restrictions and conditions. They could talk about or promote their passion(s) or passion projects, etc., and it was also for free.
After my well-being was solid and it was clear that I was no longer depressed nor did I have suicidal ideations, Scott had a long heart to heart talk with me.
He shared with me that one day I will have to let 1111 go (and share it with others) since I am well now, and 1111 is not making money. And I was very resistant and reluctant in one day having to let 1111 go, but I knew Scott was looking out for me as he knew that I could never make money from it directly.
And after I kind of embraced the thought that I will need to let go of 1111 eventually one day, the very next day I have a guest come in for 1111.
And Scott strongly feels that this person will make a perfect guest host for 1111 and she will most likely want to do it, he feels everything about them is a yes.
After our 1111 conversation, Scott comes out and asks my guest if they would like to be a guest host of 1111, but he did say that he couldn’t commit, it was ultimately my decision.
And it was so evident that this person would be the perfect fit. It was really hard at first letting 1111 go; I would get emotional at first at just the thought of having to let it go.
But I trusted Scott. I was emotionally well enough at the time - and Scott felt it would soon be time for me to start addressing my financial well-being - and 1111 would not make me any money as that is not what it was created for. And with Scott’s guidance and continuous support, I let go of 1111.
This video captured in the moment shows how hard it was for me at the time to let it go. And of course, I am not in this emotional place or state of mind anymore. This video is a part of time, where it documents one of those significant events in my journey.
Once we had our first confirmed guest host, Scott gently convinced me that we had to allow non-prejudicialy everybody who has been a guest on 1111 an opportunity to be considered as a guest host and go through the process. And we've had a number of guests who went on to become hosts of 1111.
Scott also created 1111 for young children which gave me the opportunity to be with kids as he knew how much I loved kids and missed working with kids.
And so, Scott created WE ELEVENS which lead me to have my first We Eleven.
Scott told me that 1111 would be the foundation for all my dreams to come true.
He said it's where all the abundance would come from even though it will never come out of it directly.
Scott asked me to give him ninety days to obsessively focus on building 1111 even though it was not a business or profit center for me.
Scott promised me that if I did that, that within ninety days, I would become somewhat of a small town celebrity.
I trusted Scott even though I could not understand and fathom what was happening and had no interest in being any sort of celebrity. In fact I preferred to be invisible.
I did not understand business or why getting attention was so important, but I knew to trust Scott and I did my best to follow his guidance and leadership. And in less than ninety days, I get an opportunity to go to some sort of seminar in Toronto for free.
Scott suggested I go to this seminar not because it would change my life but for one reason only – Scott promised me that at least a minimum of three people would come up to me at the seminar and ask me, "Aren’t you that girl on Facebook?”
Five people came up to me at the seminar and asked me this very same question. I remember walking into a Best Buy which is on the other side of town to buy a capture card and the guy at the counter who is serving us recognizes me and asks me, aren’t you that girl on Facebook that interviews people?”
I've walked into malls and this very same thing happens! I could not believe what was happening. Scott delivered on his promise.
And when I told Scott I had a dream to go to California one day, he said, “Well, I told you, we could do anything with 1111.”
And the next thing you know, Scott writes this message and sends it to this particular person who lives in California, Sacramento who I did not know and he did not know, and the person responds back that very same day and offers to host us at her home for two months.
By the end of October we are on a tour in the U.S hosting episodes of 1111 in Sacramento, Anaheim, Arizona, Nashville, Louisville, Kentucky, we have had guests in different cities.
Scott showed me how to get a guest overnight in any City I want. And I applied what Scott taught me on this tour and it worked. I had the most amazing and abundant journey on this tour and it is all because of Scott and starting with him knowing what I needed from the very beginning.
The odds were against me in me winning against this well-known and powerful charity, but Scott would not give up in what he knew was important to me even though there were times when I was on the verge of giving up on myself because it was just too much for me to handle.
Scott would not all allow me to accept defeat, it just was not an option for him.
Thanks to Scott's multi-faceted talents, determination, unconditional love and conviction, I won the Ministry of Labor Case, and I claimed my victory!
The charity was ordered by the Ministry of Labor to send a payment in the amount of $30,943.71 to the Director of Employment Standards in Trust.
That payment was processed and received by me co-incidentally just a few days before I left for my U.S. tour!
Scott did for me what my psychotherapist and psychiatrist could not do.
I am healthy, mentally capable and I do not think about ending my life anymore. I am living the best and most prosperous time of my life. I am not dependent on Scott or anyone anymore!
I now have my own studio!
1111 and Passion Projects LIGHT have given me mind-blowing visibility and attention both locally and internationally since we first launched it back in April 2017.
Scott taught me that a truly self-sustainable platform exists ONLY when the creator, is no longer needed and it still continues to flourish.
And this is exactly what happened!
When Scott and I were in the U.S for 5 weeks taking 1111 on the road, episodes were simultaneously going on in Canada as well every single day!
On, or around my birthday (February 11th, 2018) Scott has a heart to heart talk with me advising me that it is time for me to stop relying on donations and to start acting and operating like a business owner....
Scott creates a plan for me which I follow and in less than 3 weeks, I get my very first Coaching Client and that client pays me 11 Thousand dollars for 30 days of my time.
A couple months later (April 27th, 2018) I not only received the Waterfront People's Choice Award, I had the highest number of votes (Scott gets the credit for doing some sort of marketing magic to this day.
Scott also created 1111 for young children which gave me the opportunity to be with kids as he knew how much I loved kids and missed working with kids.
And so, Scott created WE ELEVENS which lead me to have my first We Eleven.
Scott told me that 1111 would be the foundation for all my dreams to come true.
He said it's where all the abundance would come from even though it will never come out of it directly.
Scott asked me to give him ninety days to obsessively focus on building 1111 even though it was not a business or profit center for me.
Scott promised me that if I did that, that within ninety days, I would become somewhat of a small town celebrity.
I trusted Scott even though I could not understand and fathom what was happening and had no interest in being any sort of celebrity. In fact I preferred to be invisible.
I did not understand business or why getting attention was so important, but I knew to trust Scott and I did my best to follow his guidance and leadership. And in less than ninety days, I get an opportunity to go to some sort of seminar in Toronto for free.
Scott suggested I go to this seminar not because it would change my life but for one reason only – Scott promised me that at least a minimum of three people would come up to me at the seminar and ask me, "Aren’t you that girl on Facebook?”
Five people came up to me at the seminar and asked me this very same question. I remember walking into a Best Buy which is on the other side of town to buy a capture card and the guy at the counter who is serving us recognizes me and asks me, aren’t you that girl on Facebook that interviews people?”
I've walked into malls and this very same thing happens! I could not believe what was happening. Scott delivered on his promise.
And when I told Scott I had a dream to go to California one day, he said, “Well, I told you, we could do anything with 1111.”
And the next thing you know, Scott writes this message and sends it to this particular person who lives in California, Sacramento who I did not know and he did not know, and the person responds back that very same day and offers to host us at her home for two months.
By the end of October we are on a tour in the U.S hosting episodes of 1111 in Sacramento, Anaheim, Arizona, Nashville, Louisville, Kentucky, we have had guests in different cities.
Scott showed me how to get a guest overnight in any City I want. And I applied what Scott taught me on this tour and it worked. I had the most amazing and abundant journey on this tour and it is all because of Scott and starting with him knowing what I needed from the very beginning.
The odds were against me in me winning against this well-known and powerful charity, but Scott would not give up in what he knew was important to me even though there were times when I was on the verge of giving up on myself because it was just too much for me to handle.
Scott would not all allow me to accept defeat, it just was not an option for him.
Thanks to Scott's multi-faceted talents, determination, unconditional love and conviction, I won the Ministry of Labor Case, and I claimed my victory!
The charity was ordered by the Ministry of Labor to send a payment in the amount of $30,943.71 to the Director of Employment Standards in Trust.
That payment was processed and received by me co-incidentally just a few days before I left for my U.S. tour!
Scott did for me what my psychotherapist and psychiatrist could not do.
I am healthy, mentally capable and I do not think about ending my life anymore. I am living the best and most prosperous time of my life. I am not dependent on Scott or anyone anymore!
I now have my own studio!
1111 and Passion Projects LIGHT have given me mind-blowing visibility and attention both locally and internationally since we first launched it back in April 2017.
Scott taught me that a truly self-sustainable platform exists ONLY when the creator, is no longer needed and it still continues to flourish.
And this is exactly what happened!
When Scott and I were in the U.S for 5 weeks taking 1111 on the road, episodes were simultaneously going on in Canada as well every single day!
On, or around my birthday (February 11th, 2018) Scott has a heart to heart talk with me advising me that it is time for me to stop relying on donations and to start acting and operating like a business owner....
Scott creates a plan for me which I follow and in less than 3 weeks, I get my very first Coaching Client and that client pays me 11 Thousand dollars for 30 days of my time.
A couple months later (April 27th, 2018) I not only received the Waterfront People's Choice Award, I had the highest number of votes (Scott gets the credit for doing some sort of marketing magic to this day.
At the time I didn’t understand it.
How did I, shy and quiet former grief counselor get more votes than the valedictorians, businesswomen and professional singers I competed against?
Now, after thinking about, I know how that happened. And it’s exactly the kind of thing I can help you with - ATTENTION - VISIBILITY - ENGAGEMENT.
I was successfully engaging with the world at large. How? By recording videos of myself and other people, being relatable AND authentic on VIDEO. The questions we ask each other on these videos makes draws out the realness without the fluff and captures the heart and spirit of their underlying message, and that level of realness and integrity encourages connection and engagement.
I shared my videos daily on social media (primarily on Facebook), and I connected and engaged with a tremendous number of people. This helped heal my soul, stirring me into the direction of a full-time entrepreneur.
Now let me tell you something about why 1111 is so unique in the world of entrepreneurship, and getting known first before getting into the monetization root. I didn’t start this as a business. We didn’t think in terms of offers or funnels. What inspired the creation of 1111? - Scott's commitment and conviction in empowering me to get out of my isolation and depression, and achieving just that through daily human connection other then him. It had to be me connecting with a different person everyday ....
Scott knew that I needed daily interaction with another human being to compensate for the fact that I was not getting that human connection with my clients like i was at my job anymore. So I went live with a different guest in the studio everyday on or before 11:11am. Without thinking about how 1111 could be monetized and turn into a business, it was not a business. And from there, more or less, after I recovered from my depression and saw hope again, the platform inspired the desire for me to look at exploring ways in which I can help other people with, for example, getting comfortable with and mastering communicating on VIDEO (Like what Scott did for ME), AND here I am!
Out of the blue, clients would approach me, I did not have to approach them. Scott got me so well known in my local town that they would either see me weather it was on video, facebook live, or read my 1111 story, and it did not take long till they developed a meaningful and trusting connection - One thing would lead to the next, and before I knew it, they expressed interest in retaining me (with Scott's guidance in the background of course), but they wanted to retain ME for coaching and consulting with them on their life and/or their business.
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My first year, I more than tripled my old income as a grief counselor. I had 7 clients who paid me between $7,000 and $22,000 each for 1 to 3 months of consulting and coaching. Without having made any kind of offer to them. They just got so much value from the process, they wanted more. You see, to put things in prospective, the most I made at my job working about 50-60 hour weeks as a social worker/grief counselor was $22.000 a year. So this was a huge success for me, one that i did not even see possible at first. I couldn't even imagine what it would be like to have a client invest over $11,000 to work with me for 60 days, until my very first client paid me over $11,000 for 60 days of my time.
I have also trained approximately 24 people on how to host and produce a show. I managed about 3 successful membership sites. I lead about a dozen great 12-week programs that my clients have paid over $2,000 to participate in. And I have hosted 5 different online platforms (1111 included).
How did I, shy and quiet former grief counselor get more votes than the valedictorians, businesswomen and professional singers I competed against?
Now, after thinking about, I know how that happened. And it’s exactly the kind of thing I can help you with - ATTENTION - VISIBILITY - ENGAGEMENT.
I was successfully engaging with the world at large. How? By recording videos of myself and other people, being relatable AND authentic on VIDEO. The questions we ask each other on these videos makes draws out the realness without the fluff and captures the heart and spirit of their underlying message, and that level of realness and integrity encourages connection and engagement.
I shared my videos daily on social media (primarily on Facebook), and I connected and engaged with a tremendous number of people. This helped heal my soul, stirring me into the direction of a full-time entrepreneur.
Now let me tell you something about why 1111 is so unique in the world of entrepreneurship, and getting known first before getting into the monetization root. I didn’t start this as a business. We didn’t think in terms of offers or funnels. What inspired the creation of 1111? - Scott's commitment and conviction in empowering me to get out of my isolation and depression, and achieving just that through daily human connection other then him. It had to be me connecting with a different person everyday ....
Scott knew that I needed daily interaction with another human being to compensate for the fact that I was not getting that human connection with my clients like i was at my job anymore. So I went live with a different guest in the studio everyday on or before 11:11am. Without thinking about how 1111 could be monetized and turn into a business, it was not a business. And from there, more or less, after I recovered from my depression and saw hope again, the platform inspired the desire for me to look at exploring ways in which I can help other people with, for example, getting comfortable with and mastering communicating on VIDEO (Like what Scott did for ME), AND here I am!
Out of the blue, clients would approach me, I did not have to approach them. Scott got me so well known in my local town that they would either see me weather it was on video, facebook live, or read my 1111 story, and it did not take long till they developed a meaningful and trusting connection - One thing would lead to the next, and before I knew it, they expressed interest in retaining me (with Scott's guidance in the background of course), but they wanted to retain ME for coaching and consulting with them on their life and/or their business.
THIS SECTION BELOW WILL BE UPDATED IN 48 HOURS, SO REVISIT THIS PART IN 48 HOURS
My first year, I more than tripled my old income as a grief counselor. I had 7 clients who paid me between $7,000 and $22,000 each for 1 to 3 months of consulting and coaching. Without having made any kind of offer to them. They just got so much value from the process, they wanted more. You see, to put things in prospective, the most I made at my job working about 50-60 hour weeks as a social worker/grief counselor was $22.000 a year. So this was a huge success for me, one that i did not even see possible at first. I couldn't even imagine what it would be like to have a client invest over $11,000 to work with me for 60 days, until my very first client paid me over $11,000 for 60 days of my time.
I have also trained approximately 24 people on how to host and produce a show. I managed about 3 successful membership sites. I lead about a dozen great 12-week programs that my clients have paid over $2,000 to participate in. And I have hosted 5 different online platforms (1111 included).
HOW SCOTT'S JOURNEY STARTED WITH SAMEENA -IT WAS
ALL BASED ON A PROMISE HE MADE TO HER IN 2016:
ALL BASED ON A PROMISE HE MADE TO HER IN 2016:
Why is Scott still here five years later, helping me, and now he has partnered with me and we both are doing the same work together.
Hi, this is Sameena
In the story below that John Newland wrote, he says, "I brought Scott down with me which also explains why he is in the same financial position today". The story below further explains the context of what John said.
This text below tells the story of the video that's below this text, 'honoring his word' for those of you who may not watch this passionate video.
People always have questions about why Scott has devoted so much time and effort to helping me.
Well, there is a very profound story behind it that most people don't know, And so I thought it is important that I share the real journey behind why Scott has done all that he has done for me.
It goes way back to the year, 2016 - It first began with Scott taking a bold stand for my father.
And ever since than, Scott has been honoring his promise to me that he made to me back in 2016.
And the promise Scott made to me and why he continues to still honor that promise today, is based on things not turning out how we had both expected it to, and (in Scott's world) the choice was taken away from me ....
When my dad got cancer in 2016, I was afraid to ask for time off work. Dad used to drop me to work almost every day, but as he got sicker, he was no longer able to. So my friend Scott, who I met in a college course, started driving me.
One day before Scott dropped me off, he noticed that my hands were shaking, I was terrified going into work.
I just found out that my dad was diagnosed with cancer. I was very scared and anxious going into work, terrified of my employer. I was forced to work all these overtime hours for free, I was supporting and giving care to all these strangers, but I couldn’t do the same for my dad.
Even under this stress, I always loved my job, and it was the most important thing in the world to me except for my parents.
I would never do anything that would jeopardize my job because it was my entire life. It gave me purpose and a sense of worthiness and security.
I was working 60 hour weeks and getting paid for 25 hours. The organization I worked in, a local hospice, it was their culture to expect their employees to work overtime with no pay, which is illegal here in Canada.
Scott would gently tell me that what was happening at my job was illegal, and that my dad needed me.
And Scott knew that I was too afraid to speak up for myself, and as I had witnessed for myself, anyone who would speak up for themselves at this company, including asking for time off, they would get reprimanded in some way, such as get fired or constructively dismissed.
And I was afraid I would be the next person to get fired.
Scott normally would not intervene like this in someone else's live, especially when it came to their livelihood without seeking their permission first. This is not how Scott normally does in intervention work.
But he knew me and understood me so well. He knew that I wouldn’t take any steps on my own to be able to spend anytime time with dad.
And he also knew how much my family meant to me and aside from my work, they were the most important thing to me in my life.
Scott never asked me if he could do anything to intervene because he knew that if he had asked me first, 'hey Sameena, do you want me to reach out to the president of the board on your behalf and share with her what's going on with your dad and how scared you are asking for sometime off so you can spend time with your family?" - I would have said NO! I was so scared of losing my job.
And so, Scott knew to just trust himself because he knew that the kind of stand he was taking, it was not for himself or to meet his own agendas.
He was taking a stand for my father and because Scott knew how much my father meant to me, he was also taking a stand for me.
That day, right after Scott dropped me off to work, as soon as he got back to the office, he created this very heartfelt video for Mary Grace, the President of the board of the hospice I worked at.
He shared with her on video, what was going on with my dad being ill, and that I was going through a lot of stress.
And he made this very simple request of her, asked her if she could take me out for coffee and just talk to me so I could feel safe sharing openly with her what was going on with me.
Three hours after he sent that video, he received a very positive response back from the President expressing how touched she was with Scott's video.
When I got in the car after work he told me what he’d done and that the she would be reaching out to me to have a conversation.
I panicked and asked Scott “what did you do, what did you do!?” I just couldn’t believe it as I was panicking. and Scott showed me the positive response he received from her, and he also showed me the video message he sent to her. And when I watched it, I cried as that's how beautiful the message was he had sent to her (behind my back). It completely honored me and my privacy.
You see, Scott didn’t ask my permission if he could reach out to the President of the board on my behalf because he knew I’d say no. And so, he followed his guidance and did what his spirit told him to do to support my father, me and the whole family during this very sensitive and conflicting time in my life.
And so, Scott saw the President's positive response to his message as an opening to get an in person meeting with just her on her own and Scott would come with me and just be with me, so I would feel safe in sharing with her everything that is going on and what I was dealing with, so I can get her support because I was too afraid to speak to my boss. I had experienced my employer yelling at me when I tried to talk to her and told her that I could no longer work those free hours anymore, and I will only work the hours I am getting paid for for my own wellbeing.
And so Scott suggested we get a meeting with the president of the board, and I reluctantly agreed.
And Scott made a promise to me that if I allow him to be my voice at a meeting with the President of the board of the hospice I was working for at the time, and he would come with me and support me in sharing all that was going on at this charity, including their illegal practices, and that I didn't feel safe going into work, it would result in me having a better career, not having to work all those free hours, and most importantly, I would feel safe going into work.
And the OPPOSITE happened, resulting in me losing my job and my entire career as a social worker and grief counselor.
Scott could not have anticipated that I would get reprimanded and suspended and that it would cost me my job and my career. He promised me that if I allowed him to get a board meeting and be my voice, that 1) I wouldn’t be afraid to go to work anymore, and 2) I would no longer have to work free overtime illegally.
He promised that I would have a better life and a better career because I allowed him to represent me. He expected that the board knew nothing of what was happening, and that they would move swiftly to fix it.
Instead we found out that the corruption went all the way up to the board, they knew all about the malfeasance, and they would kill my career in order to punish me for bringing it up.
From then on, everything Scott has done for me has been to honor his word that his intervention would make my life better and help my career. In his mind, he took away my choice, my career, my financial security. Instead of saying “sorry it worked out that way” like most people would have, he honored his word, and continues to honor his word even today.
Over the past 5 years that Scott has tried to help me get a business going, he never once acted like I was a burden. But I certainly have become a burden. Scott lost money because of all the family baggage that pulled me down.
Scott was there for my family, driving me to my dad's treatments. He took a stand for my father. Everything Scott has done since then has been him honoring his word because out of no fault of my own, I lost my job and career and financial security.
Scott felt that he didn’t deserve to make money because he made me lose my job. He took responsibility for costing me my job. he took that choice away from me, so he took it upon himself to make up for it. It wasn’t because it was me, he would have handled this the same way if he had affected anyone like that.
Scott has been a successful entrepreneur for 30 years, but he decided to put his business and money making on hold until he helped me create a pathway to being self-sustainable again.
He said it was impossible to do 2 things at once, and he wouldn’t be able to help me start a business if he was still working on his business. That was his oath to himself and to me. And everything he’s done since then has been consistent with that oath.
Scott took responsibility for the choices he made behind my back that cost me my job, which I loved.
Anyone else would have said they had done their best, they didn’t mean to cost my job, now I have to take care of myself. But not Scott.
Scott told me “we’re in this together”. He put everything on hold because he knew that making money and seeing his clients would trigger me because of what he had cost me.
During that time, Scott acted as my agent and represented me with the ministry of labor and got me $30,943.71 of unpaid wages which he promised he would. And he did not ask nor want a dime!
And he still stood by his word to do everything to make sure I was better off than before I lost my job. He totally exhausted all his savings, putting his business on hold by putting all his attention and energy into building a pathway for me that would eventually lead to recurring revenue having me be self-sustainable.
Everything that has happened since 2016 has been about Scott honoring his word. He wasn’t helping me as a charity case, he never gave me money or enabled me in that was. But he gave me an opportunity by creating all these platforms, multiple brands, and other creations for me with the intention that they would lead to a pathway for generating an income for me.
And I had multiple successes along the way thanks to Scott's guidance and support. in fact in that first year after the legal battle with my employer and Scott won the case for me, and I lost my profession, with Scott's mentorship and guidance, I made $70,000, which was huge for me back then, given that I was making 21,000 a year in my job.
Scott helped me get my own coaching clients, my very first client paid me $11,000 for 30 days of my time to help her build her own business and also with some personal issues she was dealing with at the time (With Scott's support and guidance in the background of course). And all the profits that came in, it all went to me because it was part of Scott honoring his word to me.
And I would get into a positive groove and momentum with my business that Scott was building for me, and then another family crisis would happen, and I would get out of that momentum for a while, and it would be difficult to get back into it.
And despite all of the family interruptions and distractions to my business, Scott continued to support me with whatever I needed at the time and work at my pace, even if it was costing him money because again, he was honoring his word to me, even if that meant getting out of focus for sometime and supporting me with family stuff as they came up. And at the time, Scott was in a financial position to do so without giving a thought to his own needs - And this is not the case anymore.
This pattern continued over the years, the constant family interruptions, one thing after another, which is why I haven't been able to maintain a consistent cash flow in my business. And regardless, Scott continued to support me no matter what.
And now, I have brought Scott down with me which also explains why he is in the same financial position as me today (December 8, 2121).
I have allowed my family, my parents overtime to have a negative influence on my business and what Scott was creating for me to make me permanently self-sustainable.
And all the family drama and crisis, interruptions that caused triggers, obsessive worry has not only had a negative impact on me financially, but it has also had a negative impact on Scott.
And I have come to realize today after everything that has happened (if you have seen all the communications to my parents on this page), I have brought Scott down with me, and that's just the fact.
Scott was honoring his word and taking responsibility for the impact his actions (with good intentions) had on my career and on my financial security. Scott made me his passion project and promised to make me self-sufficient.
Ever since I lost my job and my career, Scott made an oath to me, that 'we’re in this together'. And he has always acted consistent with his word.
I was in no position to go find a new job and start a new career that involved being in the system. I became unemployable.
I was devastated over losing the only pathway she knew to making an income. I lost my passion, my purpose going into work everyday knowing I was making a difference with my clients, all of that was gone for me. And to top it all off, I did not know how to sell and I had zero entrepreneurial skills.
So Scott, and what I know about Scott is his word is everything to him, this is how he lives his life, no matter what the circumstances, he always finds a way to honor his word, which is what he has been doing with me since 2016.
Scott being in business for himself for over 30 years, took me under his wing and made me his number one focus and passion passion project making me into the solopreneur I today.
Hi, this is Sameena
In the story below that John Newland wrote, he says, "I brought Scott down with me which also explains why he is in the same financial position today". The story below further explains the context of what John said.
This text below tells the story of the video that's below this text, 'honoring his word' for those of you who may not watch this passionate video.
People always have questions about why Scott has devoted so much time and effort to helping me.
Well, there is a very profound story behind it that most people don't know, And so I thought it is important that I share the real journey behind why Scott has done all that he has done for me.
It goes way back to the year, 2016 - It first began with Scott taking a bold stand for my father.
And ever since than, Scott has been honoring his promise to me that he made to me back in 2016.
And the promise Scott made to me and why he continues to still honor that promise today, is based on things not turning out how we had both expected it to, and (in Scott's world) the choice was taken away from me ....
When my dad got cancer in 2016, I was afraid to ask for time off work. Dad used to drop me to work almost every day, but as he got sicker, he was no longer able to. So my friend Scott, who I met in a college course, started driving me.
One day before Scott dropped me off, he noticed that my hands were shaking, I was terrified going into work.
I just found out that my dad was diagnosed with cancer. I was very scared and anxious going into work, terrified of my employer. I was forced to work all these overtime hours for free, I was supporting and giving care to all these strangers, but I couldn’t do the same for my dad.
Even under this stress, I always loved my job, and it was the most important thing in the world to me except for my parents.
I would never do anything that would jeopardize my job because it was my entire life. It gave me purpose and a sense of worthiness and security.
I was working 60 hour weeks and getting paid for 25 hours. The organization I worked in, a local hospice, it was their culture to expect their employees to work overtime with no pay, which is illegal here in Canada.
Scott would gently tell me that what was happening at my job was illegal, and that my dad needed me.
And Scott knew that I was too afraid to speak up for myself, and as I had witnessed for myself, anyone who would speak up for themselves at this company, including asking for time off, they would get reprimanded in some way, such as get fired or constructively dismissed.
And I was afraid I would be the next person to get fired.
Scott normally would not intervene like this in someone else's live, especially when it came to their livelihood without seeking their permission first. This is not how Scott normally does in intervention work.
But he knew me and understood me so well. He knew that I wouldn’t take any steps on my own to be able to spend anytime time with dad.
And he also knew how much my family meant to me and aside from my work, they were the most important thing to me in my life.
Scott never asked me if he could do anything to intervene because he knew that if he had asked me first, 'hey Sameena, do you want me to reach out to the president of the board on your behalf and share with her what's going on with your dad and how scared you are asking for sometime off so you can spend time with your family?" - I would have said NO! I was so scared of losing my job.
And so, Scott knew to just trust himself because he knew that the kind of stand he was taking, it was not for himself or to meet his own agendas.
He was taking a stand for my father and because Scott knew how much my father meant to me, he was also taking a stand for me.
That day, right after Scott dropped me off to work, as soon as he got back to the office, he created this very heartfelt video for Mary Grace, the President of the board of the hospice I worked at.
He shared with her on video, what was going on with my dad being ill, and that I was going through a lot of stress.
And he made this very simple request of her, asked her if she could take me out for coffee and just talk to me so I could feel safe sharing openly with her what was going on with me.
Three hours after he sent that video, he received a very positive response back from the President expressing how touched she was with Scott's video.
When I got in the car after work he told me what he’d done and that the she would be reaching out to me to have a conversation.
I panicked and asked Scott “what did you do, what did you do!?” I just couldn’t believe it as I was panicking. and Scott showed me the positive response he received from her, and he also showed me the video message he sent to her. And when I watched it, I cried as that's how beautiful the message was he had sent to her (behind my back). It completely honored me and my privacy.
You see, Scott didn’t ask my permission if he could reach out to the President of the board on my behalf because he knew I’d say no. And so, he followed his guidance and did what his spirit told him to do to support my father, me and the whole family during this very sensitive and conflicting time in my life.
And so, Scott saw the President's positive response to his message as an opening to get an in person meeting with just her on her own and Scott would come with me and just be with me, so I would feel safe in sharing with her everything that is going on and what I was dealing with, so I can get her support because I was too afraid to speak to my boss. I had experienced my employer yelling at me when I tried to talk to her and told her that I could no longer work those free hours anymore, and I will only work the hours I am getting paid for for my own wellbeing.
And so Scott suggested we get a meeting with the president of the board, and I reluctantly agreed.
And Scott made a promise to me that if I allow him to be my voice at a meeting with the President of the board of the hospice I was working for at the time, and he would come with me and support me in sharing all that was going on at this charity, including their illegal practices, and that I didn't feel safe going into work, it would result in me having a better career, not having to work all those free hours, and most importantly, I would feel safe going into work.
And the OPPOSITE happened, resulting in me losing my job and my entire career as a social worker and grief counselor.
Scott could not have anticipated that I would get reprimanded and suspended and that it would cost me my job and my career. He promised me that if I allowed him to get a board meeting and be my voice, that 1) I wouldn’t be afraid to go to work anymore, and 2) I would no longer have to work free overtime illegally.
He promised that I would have a better life and a better career because I allowed him to represent me. He expected that the board knew nothing of what was happening, and that they would move swiftly to fix it.
Instead we found out that the corruption went all the way up to the board, they knew all about the malfeasance, and they would kill my career in order to punish me for bringing it up.
From then on, everything Scott has done for me has been to honor his word that his intervention would make my life better and help my career. In his mind, he took away my choice, my career, my financial security. Instead of saying “sorry it worked out that way” like most people would have, he honored his word, and continues to honor his word even today.
Over the past 5 years that Scott has tried to help me get a business going, he never once acted like I was a burden. But I certainly have become a burden. Scott lost money because of all the family baggage that pulled me down.
Scott was there for my family, driving me to my dad's treatments. He took a stand for my father. Everything Scott has done since then has been him honoring his word because out of no fault of my own, I lost my job and career and financial security.
Scott felt that he didn’t deserve to make money because he made me lose my job. He took responsibility for costing me my job. he took that choice away from me, so he took it upon himself to make up for it. It wasn’t because it was me, he would have handled this the same way if he had affected anyone like that.
Scott has been a successful entrepreneur for 30 years, but he decided to put his business and money making on hold until he helped me create a pathway to being self-sustainable again.
He said it was impossible to do 2 things at once, and he wouldn’t be able to help me start a business if he was still working on his business. That was his oath to himself and to me. And everything he’s done since then has been consistent with that oath.
Scott took responsibility for the choices he made behind my back that cost me my job, which I loved.
Anyone else would have said they had done their best, they didn’t mean to cost my job, now I have to take care of myself. But not Scott.
Scott told me “we’re in this together”. He put everything on hold because he knew that making money and seeing his clients would trigger me because of what he had cost me.
During that time, Scott acted as my agent and represented me with the ministry of labor and got me $30,943.71 of unpaid wages which he promised he would. And he did not ask nor want a dime!
And he still stood by his word to do everything to make sure I was better off than before I lost my job. He totally exhausted all his savings, putting his business on hold by putting all his attention and energy into building a pathway for me that would eventually lead to recurring revenue having me be self-sustainable.
Everything that has happened since 2016 has been about Scott honoring his word. He wasn’t helping me as a charity case, he never gave me money or enabled me in that was. But he gave me an opportunity by creating all these platforms, multiple brands, and other creations for me with the intention that they would lead to a pathway for generating an income for me.
And I had multiple successes along the way thanks to Scott's guidance and support. in fact in that first year after the legal battle with my employer and Scott won the case for me, and I lost my profession, with Scott's mentorship and guidance, I made $70,000, which was huge for me back then, given that I was making 21,000 a year in my job.
Scott helped me get my own coaching clients, my very first client paid me $11,000 for 30 days of my time to help her build her own business and also with some personal issues she was dealing with at the time (With Scott's support and guidance in the background of course). And all the profits that came in, it all went to me because it was part of Scott honoring his word to me.
And I would get into a positive groove and momentum with my business that Scott was building for me, and then another family crisis would happen, and I would get out of that momentum for a while, and it would be difficult to get back into it.
And despite all of the family interruptions and distractions to my business, Scott continued to support me with whatever I needed at the time and work at my pace, even if it was costing him money because again, he was honoring his word to me, even if that meant getting out of focus for sometime and supporting me with family stuff as they came up. And at the time, Scott was in a financial position to do so without giving a thought to his own needs - And this is not the case anymore.
This pattern continued over the years, the constant family interruptions, one thing after another, which is why I haven't been able to maintain a consistent cash flow in my business. And regardless, Scott continued to support me no matter what.
And now, I have brought Scott down with me which also explains why he is in the same financial position as me today (December 8, 2121).
I have allowed my family, my parents overtime to have a negative influence on my business and what Scott was creating for me to make me permanently self-sustainable.
And all the family drama and crisis, interruptions that caused triggers, obsessive worry has not only had a negative impact on me financially, but it has also had a negative impact on Scott.
And I have come to realize today after everything that has happened (if you have seen all the communications to my parents on this page), I have brought Scott down with me, and that's just the fact.
Scott was honoring his word and taking responsibility for the impact his actions (with good intentions) had on my career and on my financial security. Scott made me his passion project and promised to make me self-sufficient.
Ever since I lost my job and my career, Scott made an oath to me, that 'we’re in this together'. And he has always acted consistent with his word.
I was in no position to go find a new job and start a new career that involved being in the system. I became unemployable.
I was devastated over losing the only pathway she knew to making an income. I lost my passion, my purpose going into work everyday knowing I was making a difference with my clients, all of that was gone for me. And to top it all off, I did not know how to sell and I had zero entrepreneurial skills.
So Scott, and what I know about Scott is his word is everything to him, this is how he lives his life, no matter what the circumstances, he always finds a way to honor his word, which is what he has been doing with me since 2016.
Scott being in business for himself for over 30 years, took me under his wing and made me his number one focus and passion passion project making me into the solopreneur I today.
I wrote some text above the video sharing the story that is in this video incase you don't want to watch the video.
THEN COVID HAPPENED ...
THE FOLLOWING STORY
BELOW WAS WRITTEN BY MY
FRIEND/WRITER, JOHN NEWLAND
BELOW WAS WRITTEN BY MY
FRIEND/WRITER, JOHN NEWLAND
SIGNIFICANT EVENTS
MARCH 2020 - OCTOBER 2021
MARCH 2020 - OCTOBER 2021
INTRODUCTION
My name is John Newland. I have been Scott Gallagher's writer for about 11 years now. He introduced me to Sameena during Covid and asked me to help when her business came crumbling down on her. I have been with her the whole journey doing various writing projects to try to help Sameena, some were paid and some were pro-bono. The point is, I’ve been working with her for 18 months, and I’ve seen how everything happened.
The work I did to help her with her landlord, I did for free. Scott gave me clear direction on how to proceed with various writing communications to her landlord regarding the harassment Sameena was tormented with constantly by her landlord all through COVID.
Background
- 2016-2020 - Scott had created a number of platforms for Sameena which gave her visibility and attention on her self and helped other people (through her various platforms) get attention and visibility on themselves and on their passions, and some of her platforms had people talk about what they did for a living or what they wanted to do for a living which helped them get reasonable amount of attention on themselves where otherwise they would have to spend a lot of money for on advertising elsewhere.
- Her studio was an outgrowth of the popular Facebook Streaming show she created with her mentor Scott Gallagher.
- People would come into her studio, Sameena would act as the host, and interview the person to bring out their best side, and their true self which is what had them look attractive into the audience they most wanted to reach out to all in front of multiple video cameras.
- This would be broadcast as a Facebook Live on the person’s Facebook Timeline. This was done as a free service, which raised the interviewees profile on social media, as well as get them free attention and marketing leverage without having to invest in Facebook ads.
- Some of these people ended up becoming high ticket clients and ended up hiring Sameena (with Scott's guidance and support in the background for her other higher end services that were also offered through the studio and required in person meetings.
- And Sameena packaged Scott in all her higher end services increasing the perceived value and it had people who became her paid clients pay her more money all because Scott was part of her offer(s).
- Whether it was his consultation services, intervention, being part of his 12-Week signature program called Integrity Choices, which Sameena also got trained and developed in, so she was qualified to lead this program with her clients on her own (with Scott's support and guidance in the background).
- And all of these services were provided in person.
The Significance Of The Studio:
STUDIO SHUT DOWN
March 2020
Making The Transition
May 5th, 2020
Around June 2020
'Lets scrap Facebook Ads, and Youtube Ads, and lets do what we have done from day one and it always worked out ---- Lets get back to what we enjoy best, building and nurturing relationships organically' .... Where it may take time, but this is what we love to do the most, connecting with people, focusing on building real relationships with people.
April 4th, 2021
- Scott created this business model for Sameena as a pathway for her to be self-sustainable after she suddenly lost her job and her career in 2016-2017 (a whole other story).
- Sameena's business model that Scott created for her was dependent on being able to have people into her residential home like studio.
- The in-person studio was the most valuable asset that Sameena had to generate paying clients given that Sameena did not know how to sell. People just loved the in person authentic connection.
STUDIO SHUT DOWN
March 2020
- When social distancing laws came into effect during the first lockdown, face to face meetings in the studio were no longer possible, and her entire studio was dismanteled eventually during the first lock down period.
- Sameena lost her highest-paying client, because the contract was to deliver services in person (with Scott) which she could no longer fulfill because of social distancing laws.
- The pandemic destroyed her only avenue to generate paying clients, which in some form or another came from the studio.
Making The Transition
- Sameena with Scott’s help tried to readjust by moving the studio online (doing broadcasts over zoom), but that did not produce the equivalent value for her prospects. Zero customers came out of it, so she had to quickly scrap that idea.
- No face-to-face meetings meant no customers. No customers meant no income.
May 5th, 2020
- Sameena’s landlord refused to accept her rent cheque. This resulted in over 12 months of dealing with her landlord’s harassment and abuse, pretending to lose the cheque and lying about returning it. This resulted in Sameena (of no fault of her own) being technically late with her rent.
- Despite Sameena’s landlord knowing about her medically diagnosed anxiety condition, they continued to harass her and further trigger her anxiety condition.
- This made it impossible for her to focus on getting her revenue stream back on track. As she shared these moments with me, I could see her diagnosed condition becoming paranoia as she tried to deal with the harassment and frequent interruptions by her landlord scaring her and threatening her security.
- A couple months passed and her landlord did not account for the lost rent cheque, and when asked to return the rent cheque that they refused to accept before giving them a replacement cheque, they ignored Sameena and pretended that they had already returned it when they did not.
- In the mean time, Sameena's debt with her rent arrears grew up to the point where she could no longer afford to pay her rent for 11 months as her debt was just that big, also given that there was no extra income coming in from her business, and she was (with Scott's help) was starting from scratch after her studio business decimated.
- In November 2020, after going back and forth with her landlord, they served Sameena with an N4 with an intention to evict her.
Around June 2020
- Scott took it upon himself to study this whole new world of Facebook Ads. This was new territory to (Sameena) because they never had to do this before thanks to the Studio. Now, they had to learn how to sell, create and put out their offers online.
- And just when they were getting ready to finally put out their offer after months of investing in Facebook Ads, building a whole new audience (online), trial and error, testing audiences ....
- Just before Christmas 2020, in December, Scott's facebook Ads account unexpectedly got shut down, and all the work put in with creating audiences, etc, it was all gone!
- They both had to start all over again. And three months later, March 2021, Facebook suddenly shut down the Ads account again.
- At this point, Scott made a wise business decision, not to have a business dependant on one platform as a source to generate leads. And it wasn't responsible anymore to keep on investing in Facebook Ads, and they did want to take a chance on getting shut down for the third time.
- They invested some time learning about Youtube Ads, and they even started to create an offer where they could possibly (I was actually helping put together some writing material for this).
- Again this was completely new territory for both Scott and Sameena never having to learn about Youtube Ads which was even more complicated that Facebook Ads.
- After trying a number of different avenues, and they couldn't justify putting a budget into now investing in a completely new platform where there is no certainty if it work or not, Scott had enough wisdom and being self-employed for over 30 years now, he said ...
'Lets scrap Facebook Ads, and Youtube Ads, and lets do what we have done from day one and it always worked out ---- Lets get back to what we enjoy best, building and nurturing relationships organically' .... Where it may take time, but this is what we love to do the most, connecting with people, focusing on building real relationships with people.
- As we went into the new year, 2021, Sameena went into a very dark place where things started to feel very hopeless.
- The reality was, there were no new clients, and Sameena started to become doubtful if she will ever be able to generate new clients again as it has just been so long since a new paid client came in.
- Sameena's fear and anxiety around money escalated, and she was faced with a real threat of eviction if she could not pay her rent arrears before the first scheduled hearing.
- Sameena was already in so deep, that Scott new there is no other way out of her obsessive worry and anxiety other than embracing 'booking', it was the only solution for her to get out of her head faster and experience human connection with a different person every day through the process of booking.
- Scott would have these heart-to-heart conversations with Sameena understanding what it is like to be stuck in your head and not seeing a way out. he would say to her, it may not make any sense, but the only way to get out of her fears around money is to not focus on the money at all.
- In the summer of 2020, Sameena finally started to embrace booking.
- With the emotional state Sameena was in, she needed a person to book or be booked by everyday.
- But there was not a person for Sameena to have a booking session with everyday, so Scott would have regular booking sessions with her just so Sameena can get that booking experience.
- And I was the first member to join Sameena and Scott in this booking process.
- There were times I would have morning booking sessions with Scott.
- And when this whole concept of 'booking' was new to me and Sameena, there was no tribe yet, it was just us.
- Sameena and I would be have weekly booking sessions together every Friday morning. Most of the time, it would be her booking me (passing on what she was booked in) in Ask And It is Given, which was the very first book from the collection that Scott chose for Sameena to be booked in or book in. He felt it was the perfect book for Sameena to start with based on where she was at.
- And as some time went by, and Sameena really started enjoying booking and it was helping her just like how Scott said it would, they started to share it organically with their friends, and they ended up joining and have booking sessions.
April 4th, 2021
- Sameena had to file for bankruptcy to save herself from eviction and further reprisals from her landlord.
April 21st, 2021
May 28th, 2021
- Sameena receives another legal notice in the mail from the Landlord's legal firm, and this time, it is a notice for eviction for being persistently late with the rent. And this time, there was no 'Stay Of Proceedings' to protect Sameena from eviction. The Landlord was taking her to court for the second time on a whole different matter, being persistently late with the rent.
- Sameena’s landlord took her to the Landlord and Tenant’s Board for a second time trying to get her evicted for being persistently late with the rent from May 2020 to April 2021, which was partially caused by her landlord refusing to accept Sameena’s rent cheque in May 2020.
- For months, the Landlord ignored Sameena's emails asking what happened to the rent cheque that they refused to accept, and if they can return it.
- And months later, after Sameena asked nine different times, 'what happened to the cheque' - One of the landlord's agents finally responded by saying that they returned the cheque, and it was wrapped in the envelope with the note saying that they will not accept the cheque because it was from a her business account, meanwhile, they accepted a cheque that came from the same account the previous month.
- The cheque was never returned to Sameena. She even had to take a Polygraph Test, which she did May 30th, 2021 to prove that she was telling the truth and it was her Landlord and their staff who were not being forthcoming with the information. She obviously passed the test.
May 28th, 2021
- Adding to the stress just before Sameena’s first eviction hearing, her grandmother very suddenly got ill on May 18th, 2021 and was in palliative care before she passed on May 28th, 2021.
- On May 28th, Sameena not only lost her grandmother, who she was extremely close to, but 6 hours after her grandmother died, Sameena found out that her best girlfriend Sarah Clarke also very suddenly died, leaving Sameena devasted and grief stricken.
- Sameena was not only dealing with grieving from two very significant losses, but she was also faced with the possibility of eviction.
- Sarah was also Scott's very dear friend who he knew for over 20 years. Scott was also in shock and numb when he found out that Sarah had very suddenly died. Sarah was like family to Scott, the closest he would call as family given that Scott is not in connection with his family because they are abusive. Sameena came to know Sarah through Scott.
- August 12, 2021, Scott represented Sameena at the second hearing and won the case for her preventing her from being evicted. But there is a one year conditional order against Sameena. If she is even one day late with paying her rent between September 2021 - September 2022, she (and Scott) are automatically evicted and they have no other place they can go.
- Sameena was able to avoid eviction because of harassment issues. In fact, she is waiting on a court date for her to be heard on all the harassment that I helped (with Scott's guidance) document for the court
- So the lateness of rent from May 2020 through April 2021 was really caused by her landlord’s harassment, even though they had been made aware of her condition. They did everything they could to try and trigger her anxiety.
- Sameena has a court order that states that if she is even 1 day late in her rent again, eviction is automatic, and there is no recourse. She can’t afford to lose the place because it is the only place where she can continue this work (with Scott).
OUR MISSION
Sameena and Scott sharing the same passion and wanting to keep the work with Get Booked to Book Others going for humanity.
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The heart and soul behind this creation that organically turned into a business model as of December 13th. And Scott is sharing the proof that it works,
we just need more members ...
we just need more members ...
This is the most powerful meditation experience you will ever have.
This is not about us ...
This is not about us ...
'Booking' is about making a difference for another person in the most profound way that is at the most highest level. And we know the miraculous results and effects 'booking' (in the way we do it) can cause for that other person.
More than anything, we want to keep this work alive and continue to grow for years to come.
More than anything, we want to keep this work alive and continue to grow for years to come.
- 'Booking' is the solution -
- a way out for many people who are struggling with emotional problems such as depression, anxiety, self-doubt, overwhelme ...
- and they find it very difficult to get into a consistent meditation routine, and cannot otherwise no matter how hard they try to meditate.
- 'Booking' is the way out for any problem ....
Scott's ultimate vision for Get Booked To Book Others
The Vision: There are 48 Time-slots
- People Want this and need this
- Sameena can no longer keep this work going with out funding as she (and Scott) cannot continue to fund this beautiful and life-changing model that is not 'about us' on their own.
- They just need more time ....
And The Story Continues ...
Adopting the Booking Process: Moving towards the future with a new business model:
From March 2020, Sameena tried a number of things to revive her business. The one that is working the best, like her Facebook Live broadcasts, is based on service.
In June 2020, Scott introduced her to a process called “Booking”. It is a process where two people go through a section in the book together, marking the passages in the book with highlighters, where the colors correspond to the type of statement being made in the passage, bringing the book to life and into their life! It is not a book clup or studying a book together.
The whole spirit behind the 'booking' process and why it causes miraculous results, especially when a person is doing it everyday consistently at their most preferrable times, is because the idea is to come on the booking session with the INTENTION to make a difference for the other person through booking in the way we are taught to do it.
This process was traditionally practiced among people in 12 step programs as part of their Step 12 service. But it turned out to be a very helpful and most powerful and longest lasting meditation process using other books among non-addicts.
Booking served a dual purpose. In addition to an in-depth study of the books, it offers a unique form of human connection as this process is done over zoom instead of in person.
And as the booking process became even more proven to work and make a difference in people's lives one way or another, I am an example of one of them. Scott started adopting certain well known business books in the collection, and we started booking people in these business books when appropriate depending on where they are in their journey.
Creating The New Business Model
When Sameena says in all her videos to family that there are people that are struggling with depression, negative thinking, stress and anxiety, she’s talking about me. I am one of those people.
I am the “poster child” for what the booking program can do.
As I started really embracing the booking process, playing a more active role in booking other members a little more consistently, I noticed my self-confidence starting to come back, my self-hatred issues started to disappear, I was feeling more alive and happier, and I started to believe in myself again.
I have achieved great results in my life, and I know these results have to do with feeling worthy and useful again. During COVID, if I was lucky, I would get like one client per month and many times, no clients. It felt like my Fiverr business was dead and my passion was gone. I felt like a disappointment to my family, and I was letting everyone around me down. I felt nothing I did no matter how hard I tried was good enough, so I became even more depressed.
And now, my earnings from my own side business increased 10x from $150/month to $1,500/month, which is a huge leap for me. For this reason, just seeing the difference that Get Booked to Book Others has had in my life, and I also love to be a contribution wherever and whenever I can, I remain a part of this beautiful tribe over a year later.
And when I have the opportunity to book someone, I just love it, it makes me feel useful.
In November 2021, Scott found a creative way to turn this into a business model with the intention that it would turn into a recurring revenue stream for Sameena, making her finally self-sufficient.
It’s important to note though that Scott doesn’t get a cut of these recurring revenues that will come out of the membership monthly fees, which is a small portion of the profit because Scott initially created this model for Sameena to help be self-sustainable.
And any clients that do come out of the membership either directly or in directly and want to hire Sameena for any of her other services that is not 'booking', Scott will get a percentage of the profit because he will be part of delivering the service along with Sameena.
Turning Get Booked to Book Others Into A Recurring Revenue Stream
In order to support the growing number of people booking, a great deal of scheduling and recording infrastructure is required.
Scott and Sameena's goal was to have at least 111 observers in the group by December 12th, and in fact, by December 12 before midnight, there were a total of 120 people in the group, some of them are active members. Our goal is that we have at least 111 ACTIVE members by April 4th, 2022.
The majority of Sameena’s efforts are in gathering new people into the booking process.
Now, for anyone coming into the membership After December 12, are put on a 60 day free trial so they can experience the process, and then after the 60 days expires and they wish to continue, new members will be paying $33/month to be part of this membership.
See, the problem is that Sameena has run out of her savings. Government assistance for businesses decimated by Covid have run out. And the rent for the apartment where her businesses is centered is due on January 1, 2022.
Over the last 18 months, it has been a constant struggle for Sameena. If it wasn’t landlord triggering and scaring her, it would be one family crisis after another. So Sameena really did not have a chance to get in a positive and consistent momentum in her business to achieve consistent success and sustainability.
Regardless of everything Sameena was going through, Scott continued to support her and work with her at her pace, based on everything she was dealing with.
He put his own business on hold, which is all part of him honoring his word (a whole other story).
From March 2020, Sameena tried a number of things to revive her business. The one that is working the best, like her Facebook Live broadcasts, is based on service.
In June 2020, Scott introduced her to a process called “Booking”. It is a process where two people go through a section in the book together, marking the passages in the book with highlighters, where the colors correspond to the type of statement being made in the passage, bringing the book to life and into their life! It is not a book clup or studying a book together.
The whole spirit behind the 'booking' process and why it causes miraculous results, especially when a person is doing it everyday consistently at their most preferrable times, is because the idea is to come on the booking session with the INTENTION to make a difference for the other person through booking in the way we are taught to do it.
This process was traditionally practiced among people in 12 step programs as part of their Step 12 service. But it turned out to be a very helpful and most powerful and longest lasting meditation process using other books among non-addicts.
Booking served a dual purpose. In addition to an in-depth study of the books, it offers a unique form of human connection as this process is done over zoom instead of in person.
And as the booking process became even more proven to work and make a difference in people's lives one way or another, I am an example of one of them. Scott started adopting certain well known business books in the collection, and we started booking people in these business books when appropriate depending on where they are in their journey.
Creating The New Business Model
When Sameena says in all her videos to family that there are people that are struggling with depression, negative thinking, stress and anxiety, she’s talking about me. I am one of those people.
I am the “poster child” for what the booking program can do.
As I started really embracing the booking process, playing a more active role in booking other members a little more consistently, I noticed my self-confidence starting to come back, my self-hatred issues started to disappear, I was feeling more alive and happier, and I started to believe in myself again.
I have achieved great results in my life, and I know these results have to do with feeling worthy and useful again. During COVID, if I was lucky, I would get like one client per month and many times, no clients. It felt like my Fiverr business was dead and my passion was gone. I felt like a disappointment to my family, and I was letting everyone around me down. I felt nothing I did no matter how hard I tried was good enough, so I became even more depressed.
And now, my earnings from my own side business increased 10x from $150/month to $1,500/month, which is a huge leap for me. For this reason, just seeing the difference that Get Booked to Book Others has had in my life, and I also love to be a contribution wherever and whenever I can, I remain a part of this beautiful tribe over a year later.
And when I have the opportunity to book someone, I just love it, it makes me feel useful.
In November 2021, Scott found a creative way to turn this into a business model with the intention that it would turn into a recurring revenue stream for Sameena, making her finally self-sufficient.
It’s important to note though that Scott doesn’t get a cut of these recurring revenues that will come out of the membership monthly fees, which is a small portion of the profit because Scott initially created this model for Sameena to help be self-sustainable.
And any clients that do come out of the membership either directly or in directly and want to hire Sameena for any of her other services that is not 'booking', Scott will get a percentage of the profit because he will be part of delivering the service along with Sameena.
Turning Get Booked to Book Others Into A Recurring Revenue Stream
In order to support the growing number of people booking, a great deal of scheduling and recording infrastructure is required.
Scott and Sameena's goal was to have at least 111 observers in the group by December 12th, and in fact, by December 12 before midnight, there were a total of 120 people in the group, some of them are active members. Our goal is that we have at least 111 ACTIVE members by April 4th, 2022.
The majority of Sameena’s efforts are in gathering new people into the booking process.
Now, for anyone coming into the membership After December 12, are put on a 60 day free trial so they can experience the process, and then after the 60 days expires and they wish to continue, new members will be paying $33/month to be part of this membership.
See, the problem is that Sameena has run out of her savings. Government assistance for businesses decimated by Covid have run out. And the rent for the apartment where her businesses is centered is due on January 1, 2022.
Over the last 18 months, it has been a constant struggle for Sameena. If it wasn’t landlord triggering and scaring her, it would be one family crisis after another. So Sameena really did not have a chance to get in a positive and consistent momentum in her business to achieve consistent success and sustainability.
Regardless of everything Sameena was going through, Scott continued to support her and work with her at her pace, based on everything she was dealing with.
He put his own business on hold, which is all part of him honoring his word (a whole other story).
October 9th, 2021
Sameena is faced with one more hurdle ...
- Just when Sameena had got her focus back, and she was finally able to get back into a positive groove and momentum in continuing to rebuild her her business (with Scott), including getting back on track with connecting with people, nurturing her relationships, things are looking positive and promising again .....
ANOTHER CRISIS HITS HER ....
- October 9th, Sameena talks to her mother over the phone, and her mum gives her the most unsettling news further triggering Sameena's anxiety condition and worry, which completely killed her momentum and took her of course. I don't want to get into the specific details here related to what my mum told me just because I just don't feel it is appropriate to get into the specific on this page....
- There is a private link with all communications from Sameena to her parents, so if you would like to know the specific details of the last crisis Sameena's parents put on her effecting her ability to focus and bring in enough money on time, you can reach out to Sameena privately and I am sure she will be willing to share this private link with all the details with you.
- This last crisis with her family, it caused Sameena to go into a deep debilitating depression coupled with anxiety and suicidal ideations.
- This situation that Sameena's mother sprung on her unexpectedly was related to Sameena's dad's health and a decision he made and he went ahead and did it (behind Sameena's back) knowing that he is putting his life at risk (there is a whole other story).
- Sameena loves her father so much, that she (with Scott support) did everything she knew to do to have her dad not take any more unnecessary risks when it comes to his physical well-being and health. And Sameena would share with her parents (on videos) because she was not speaking to them to protect her own emotional and financial well-being as she could not afford anymore triggers and worry coming from her parents, she would tell them more than once how her parents actions has a significant impact on her well-being (again there is a whole story that is all documented on another private page).
- And till today, her dad has not watched Sameena's videos because according to her mum, he finds it too 'upsetting' after pleading with him numerous times to watch those videos because it is important to Sameena that she be heard by her father. And her parents did the opposite and would not listen nor hear their daughter.
- Thanks to booking and having to disconnect from talking to her parents, Sameena was able to gradually regain her focus and come out of her depression.
- This was so traumatic for Sameena that she finally realized the constant family interruptions and distractions further triggering her anxiety really cost her, leaving her almost destitute.
- This was so traumatic for Sameena that she finally realized the constant family interruptions and distractions further triggering her anxiety really cost her, leaving her almost destitute today.
- And now, she takes responsibility by not have any communication with family as she realizes that they are a destructive force to her making money, and she is staying more focused than ever in her business, creating offers, and continuing with booking and building Get Booked To Book Others with Scott's guidance and business expertise.
December 2021:
- Sameena had to put together an emergency GOFUND ME (This was her first time doing a GOFUND ME) to make her January rent, so she does not get automatically evicted. And with guidance and support from Scott and me, John helping her out with the writing for her GOFUND ME story, she caused herself to bring in $3000 from this GOFUND ME campaign alone sending the request out to about less than 20 people. And just a note: none of the donations came from any of her family members.
REACHING OUT TO FAMILY FOR HELP:
This video clip below is one of the final piece of communication to Sameena's entire family. This video is also part of Sameena taking responsibility and doing whatever she knows to do with Scott's support to repair her financial situation, including not having any communication with her parents right now for her own emotional and financial well-being.
With this video message meant for her family members, including close family members abroad, as her last resort, Sameena made an attempt to reach out to them for their support, and she was rejected.
In fact, in a WhatsApp group that has all the close family members, and Scott was also added in this group by one of Sameena's cousins a few years ago, When Scott tried to also reach out to the family in this group on Sameena's behalf by sending this video clip in the group, he was removed from the group by one of Sameena's family members.
Sameena's heartfelt video to her family, her final message that was sent in the WhatsApp group to her family, and also sent to her parents. This video was sent in response to being rejected by members of her family for reaching out for help.
My Message To Family MEMBERS:
The Below IS A Message I Sent to a Family Member, a blood relative cousin In England, UK: And His Response To The Message Is Below This Message:
Hi Khalid, This page link https://www.getbookedtobookothers.com/sameena-family-1.html has a video on it that I created this evening. please send this page link to Zainul. Scott and I have come to the point where we are really not eating, we have come to the point where it is either paying our rent for January or buying food, and we are choosing paying our rent because it takes us not eating so we can just have enough to pay our rent, we will pay our rent because we are not getting evicted. I am telling you this to stress how important that you make sure Zainul gets this page link please. So far as you will see, in our Gofund Me when you click this link https://www.getbookedtobookothers.com/sameena-family-1.html that we have raised $822, and we are just about $1000 short from having our rent paid by January 1st, and again that is if we don’t eat. In fact, Scott has been sick all day today and he has been in bed and does not have the energy today to do anything, and I truly believe he got sick where he barely ever gets sick like this is because he has not been eating the way he needs to eat. And just the other day, I was sick throwing up, and I know when I get stressed, I tend to get sick. As the days are coming closer to January 1st, I am getting more stressed because of the fact that we don’t have our rent for January yet. So please make sure Zainul gets this page link, Khalid https://www.getbookedtobookothers.com/sameena-family-1.html, It is very, very urgent that he gets it, and send him this page specifically as it is a different page link then what I sent to you before and it is especially created for family members as it has been updated, so please send him this page https://www.getbookedtobookothers.com/sameena-family-1.html . Very, very IMPORTANT. Thanks.
THIS WAS HIS RESPONSE TO MY ABOVE MESSAGE:
Is there no benefits system in Canada or social support which can provide you with appropriate housing?
There are multiple opportunities online for teaching English and working remotely doing admin etc. You are clearly both able to conduct your business in interviews and so on how about using these skills to do some paid work? I can try to see if I have any work you can help with remotely, there may be a few things I need like marketing.
When I look at my brother who is disabled and has very little cognitive function and is fully dependent on carers, I feel that you both should be able to find some paid work. If you would like to pursue it please do let me know and best wished
There are multiple opportunities online for teaching English and working remotely doing admin etc. You are clearly both able to conduct your business in interviews and so on how about using these skills to do some paid work? I can try to see if I have any work you can help with remotely, there may be a few things I need like marketing.
When I look at my brother who is disabled and has very little cognitive function and is fully dependent on carers, I feel that you both should be able to find some paid work. If you would like to pursue it please do let me know and best wished
This Is My Video Response To His Above Message:
https://youtu.be/hRodn4nnK4A
https://youtu.be/hRodn4nnK4A
THIS WAS HIS RESPONSE TO MY VIDEO RESPONSE ABOVE:
The number of job vacancies in Canada reached an all-time high of 912,600 in the third quarter of 2021,
We cant always do jobs we enjoy. Before medical school I used to work in Mcdonaldsn
My dad and your dad both struggled with jobs just to get us through and make ends meet
You should do what is needed, to pay the Bills
The number of job vacancies in Canada reached an all-time high of 912,600 in the third quarter of 2021,
We cant always do jobs we enjoy. Before medical school I used to work in Mcdonaldsn
My dad and your dad both struggled with jobs just to get us through and make ends meet
You should do what is needed, to pay the Bills
My Final video to mum and dad:
Mum, I made this video for you and dad today even though both Scott and I are sick. If you confirm that you have watched this entire video by just typing “yes”, and you do so before I wake up tomorrow morning, I will call you sometime tomorrow afternoon but not sure when. And mum just as a reminder, please NO messages other than to confirm that you have watched this entire video by just typing “yes” AFTER you have watched it. Click this link to play the video
The Below Message, I sent to certain family members, mostly abroad:
HI Naeem.
I have updated this page https://www.getbookedtobookothers.com/for-sameenas-family.html and this time I am reaching out to you asking for your support for myself and not for my parents. I am now reaching out to close family members in asking for your help for me this time. Id you can please click this link https://www.getbookedtobookothers.com/for-sameenas-family.html and watch the 18 minute video that is at top the page, titled My Emotional Appeal To My Family, and any donation you can make that feels right to you, will be great appreciate. Thank you!
And this is the message I sent to mum, which I have copied and pasted it below ….
“Mum, I updated this page link, please it is very important you send this page link to Zainul. Scott and I have come to the point where we are really not eating, we have come to the point where it is either paying our rent for January or buying food, and we are choosing paying our rent because it takes us not eating so we can just have enough to pay our rent, we will pay our rent because we are not getting evicted. I am telling you this to stress how important that you make sure Zainul gets this page link please.
So far as you will see, in our Gofund Me when you click this link https://www.getbookedtobookothers.com/sameena-family-1.html that we have raised $822, and we are just about $1000 short from having our rent paid by January 1st, and again that is if we don’t eat.
In fact, Scott has been sick all day today and he has been in bed and does not have the energy today to do anything, and I truly believe he got sick where he barely ever gets sick like this is because he has not been eating the way he needs to eat. And just the other day, I was sick throwing up, and I know when I get stressed, I tend to get sick. As the days are coming closer to January 1st, I am getting more stressed because of the fact that we don’t have our rent for January yet. So please make sure Zainul gets this page link, mum https://www.getbookedtobookothers.com/sameena-family-1.html, It is very, very urgent that he gets it, and send him this page specifically as it is a different page link then what I sent to you before and it is especially created for family members as it has been updated, so please send him this page https://www.getbookedtobookothers.com/sameena-family-1.html . Very, very IMPORTANT. Thanks.”
I have updated this page https://www.getbookedtobookothers.com/for-sameenas-family.html and this time I am reaching out to you asking for your support for myself and not for my parents. I am now reaching out to close family members in asking for your help for me this time. Id you can please click this link https://www.getbookedtobookothers.com/for-sameenas-family.html and watch the 18 minute video that is at top the page, titled My Emotional Appeal To My Family, and any donation you can make that feels right to you, will be great appreciate. Thank you!
And this is the message I sent to mum, which I have copied and pasted it below ….
“Mum, I updated this page link, please it is very important you send this page link to Zainul. Scott and I have come to the point where we are really not eating, we have come to the point where it is either paying our rent for January or buying food, and we are choosing paying our rent because it takes us not eating so we can just have enough to pay our rent, we will pay our rent because we are not getting evicted. I am telling you this to stress how important that you make sure Zainul gets this page link please.
So far as you will see, in our Gofund Me when you click this link https://www.getbookedtobookothers.com/sameena-family-1.html that we have raised $822, and we are just about $1000 short from having our rent paid by January 1st, and again that is if we don’t eat.
In fact, Scott has been sick all day today and he has been in bed and does not have the energy today to do anything, and I truly believe he got sick where he barely ever gets sick like this is because he has not been eating the way he needs to eat. And just the other day, I was sick throwing up, and I know when I get stressed, I tend to get sick. As the days are coming closer to January 1st, I am getting more stressed because of the fact that we don’t have our rent for January yet. So please make sure Zainul gets this page link, mum https://www.getbookedtobookothers.com/sameena-family-1.html, It is very, very urgent that he gets it, and send him this page specifically as it is a different page link then what I sent to you before and it is especially created for family members as it has been updated, so please send him this page https://www.getbookedtobookothers.com/sameena-family-1.html . Very, very IMPORTANT. Thanks.”
Hi Dad,
I know I said I wouldn't send you and mom any more videos. However, I really need your help, dad. I would put this in a letter for you, but it's going to take me at least two or three days to transcribe this video. And right now, I have to be focused on making money. So if I don't hear back from you that you've watched this entire video, and if I don’t hear back from you on this by next Friday, then starting next Friday, for three days, I am going to be transcribing this video into a letter and I will send it to you through email. And hopefully, I will not have to do that because I can't afford to take three days off of my work. But I also need your help, and this is very important and urgent for me. Here is the link to the video I am asking you to please watch in its entirety https://youtu.be/lck2Od0-vTU
I know I said I wouldn't send you and mom any more videos. However, I really need your help, dad. I would put this in a letter for you, but it's going to take me at least two or three days to transcribe this video. And right now, I have to be focused on making money. So if I don't hear back from you that you've watched this entire video, and if I don’t hear back from you on this by next Friday, then starting next Friday, for three days, I am going to be transcribing this video into a letter and I will send it to you through email. And hopefully, I will not have to do that because I can't afford to take three days off of my work. But I also need your help, and this is very important and urgent for me. Here is the link to the video I am asking you to please watch in its entirety https://youtu.be/lck2Od0-vTU
Response From My Dad To My Above Video:
Hi Sameena
Do hope you are keeping well.I wish I could help you but I am truly sorry I am not in a financial position to help you out with any kind of loan.Your mother and I miss you and love you.We wish you success and happiness.The door is always open for you.Loves from us. Dad
Hi Sameena
Do hope you are keeping well.I wish I could help you but I am truly sorry I am not in a financial position to help you out with any kind of loan.Your mother and I miss you and love you.We wish you success and happiness.The door is always open for you.Loves from us. Dad
MY MESSAGE TO MY MOTHER:
Hi mum, I would love to see you face to face so you and I can chat. If you'd like to, maybe you can bring me a tim hortons coffee but not expected if its inconvenient. I want to be able to spend some one on one time with you, either we could do Saturday for a couple hours starting sometime between 12pm at the earliest or 3:30pm at the latest and if Sunday is better for you I can set aside a couple hours sometime between 12pm at the earliest as a start time or 7pm at the latest as a start time. No matter what time you choose, just wanted to let you know that Scott will be in his room with headphones playing his meditation music and doing video editing for me OR he will be doing other work but in either case he will not be able to hear us talking nor will you see him for the 2 hours you are visiting. And I did not propose Friday to you as a possible option because I assume you will be working till late? But incase I am wrong and you would like to meet on a Friday, then I can do 3pm or 4 pm as the earliest start time for a couple of hours. Mum, I would like to see you again and spend some time with you face-to-face, chat, so I hope you can say yes to one of these above time options that I proposed to you above. And just incase none of those times work for you, if you can suggest some times and days that will work for you and I will do my best to accommodate so long as it does not impact my work hours. And again, you don’t have to worry about Scott, he gave me his word that he will not come out when we are spending some time together, so you will not be seeing him. Please let me know what day and time works for you. I hope to see you soon.
Hi mum, I would love to see you face to face so you and I can chat. If you'd like to, maybe you can bring me a tim hortons coffee but not expected if its inconvenient. I want to be able to spend some one on one time with you, either we could do Saturday for a couple hours starting sometime between 12pm at the earliest or 3:30pm at the latest and if Sunday is better for you I can set aside a couple hours sometime between 12pm at the earliest as a start time or 7pm at the latest as a start time. No matter what time you choose, just wanted to let you know that Scott will be in his room with headphones playing his meditation music and doing video editing for me OR he will be doing other work but in either case he will not be able to hear us talking nor will you see him for the 2 hours you are visiting. And I did not propose Friday to you as a possible option because I assume you will be working till late? But incase I am wrong and you would like to meet on a Friday, then I can do 3pm or 4 pm as the earliest start time for a couple of hours. Mum, I would like to see you again and spend some time with you face-to-face, chat, so I hope you can say yes to one of these above time options that I proposed to you above. And just incase none of those times work for you, if you can suggest some times and days that will work for you and I will do my best to accommodate so long as it does not impact my work hours. And again, you don’t have to worry about Scott, he gave me his word that he will not come out when we are spending some time together, so you will not be seeing him. Please let me know what day and time works for you. I hope to see you soon.
MY MUM'S RESPONSE TO THE ABOVE MESSAGE:
Mi mitu
I can come on Sunday at least by
1pm and I can bring Tim Hortons coffee.
Mi mitu
I can come on Sunday at least by
1pm and I can bring Tim Hortons coffee.
MY MESSAGE RESPONSE TO MY MOTHER IN RESPONSE TO HER BREAKING HER PROMISE TO ME:
Hi mum, Instead of saying, ‘you cannot come tomorrow ..’, you might have as well said that, “Dad will not allow me to come and see you” … But instead you lie to me and break your word to me. I know dad is behind this and he is controlling things in the background. And mum, you are and always have been dad’s puppet and I am no longer dad’s puppet! And no, Scott DID NOT write this message. I wrote this message 100% myself. I am not Scott’s puppet either! These are my words entirely! And this message is coming from me!
Lets me be Clear, I invited you over here at my place where I felt emotionally safe so we can and you REFUSED to come and see your daughter.
You agreed to come here at 1PM tomorrow. Please honor your agreement. If you cannot keep your agreement to show up tomorrow at 1:00PM, and I’m not asking you to keep your promise to show up tomorrow BUT I EXPECT you to honor your promise to me by giving me a number of alternative dates and times to choose from THAT DO WORK FOR YOU. You made a promise to me! Please keep your promise to me by rescheduling.
And do know that I have kept all my promises with you and Dad and I cannot say the same about you and Dad.
The more times and dates you give me, the more possibilities we have for you to honor the promise you have made to me which you have now broken by attempting to turn this around implying that I have to come to your place to see you when that is not what you agreed to!!
I told you numerous times on my videos and in writing that I WILL NOT BE COMING HOME and then you assume I will break my promise to you by coming over to see you at your place.
And to be clear mother, we will not be meeting tomorrow at any time even if you change your mind after reading this message and now want to go forward with meeting me tomorrow at MY PLACE LIKE YOU AGREED AND now have broken your agreement with me for whatever reason (and I don’t want to hear what the reason is for you cancelling!!) Either you honor your promise or you don’t mother but I have made other plans now for tomorrow based on your last minute promise breaking message.
If you refuse to reschedule, mum, then what that tells me, is that both you and dad don’t care about you keeping your promises to me, you don’t care about my values, you don’t care about my feelings, you don’t care about my needs, you don’t care about what I want, you don’t care about my emotional well-being, you don’t love me unconditionally, you only care about what you can get from me.
I provided you with an opportunity to see your daughter under the conditions where I would feel emotionally safe in my home because like I have told you numerous times, I am terrified of dad and I do not feel emotionally safe to come and see you at your place.
I opened the door so you can see and spend quality time with your daughter, and you just threw that away by allowing dad to control you ahead of your promise you made to me first.
So unless you provide me with alternative times and dates when you can come over here to 10 Lisa, then you will not be seeing your daughter. And this is my decision and my decision alone just like I have been telling you for the past few months, I will not be coming home!
I will say it again, if I become homeless I WILL NOT BE COMING HOME!
Tell dad I received his email and I will not be replying to his email and make it clear to him that I do not want to receive anymore emails from him and I know dad is the reason you have chosen to break your promise to me.
You are dad’s puppet, I am not dad’s puppet anymore, I am not Scott’s puppet and these words in this message is coming entirely from me! All the videos I have sent you and all the messages I sent you to date have come 100% from me!! My Words and My voice without Scott’s influence.
So I will say it again, give me 5 DIFFERENT DATES AND TIMES that work for you, and I will do my best to choose one of them that you provide to me, and if none of the 5 options work for me, then I will provide you with 5 different dates and times until we can confirm one of them, mum
And tell dad, I will not be changing my mind, I will not be coming to see you at your place. If you want to see me, mum, then it will have to be under my terms and conditions, you will have to come here.
I will be blocking you again mum after I send you this message for my own emotional and financial well-being. I have to get back to work and cause money to come in in two weeks, so cannot afford to be further triggered by you or father and have anticipatory anxiety about receiving any upsetting messages from you or dad.
I will be unblocking you again either Wednesday night or Thursday, and the ONLY message response I will be receiving from you is 5 different dates and times to reschedule so you can honor your word to me as you had already agreed to coming to see me at my place – That’s the only message to send me, rescheduling options, NOTHING ELSE!!
This is a very hard truth for me to swallow and very heartbreaking, but I guess I just have to live with the fact that my parents don’t love me and don’t care about me unconditionally like how I love both of you unconditionally. And this is not about money, in fact it has never been about that for me. And I guess this is just something I have to live with that my parents don’t care about my well-being. I am very sorry things have to be this way, but that’s on BOTH OF YOU, NOT ME!
I provided a chance for you to be able to see your daughter again and you Refused!
And just to be clear, Dad is refusing you the freedom to go see your daughter!
I have to go now, BE YOUR WORD MUM!!
PS. Both of You Lied To Me. When father said, “if you need anything, let him know’, I reached out asking for help because of what you told me, and dad’s response was “ I am not in a financial position to help you out with any kind of loan”. You mislead me and gave me false hope - You told me mum that dad said if I need anything to ask, and then I reach out to dad with a request, and he refused to help me in anyway financially, even if it was in a small way. Dad declined to support me in anyway whatsoever financially just like how you allowed your mother to suffer for 8 hours on the floor because you would not spend $500 on an ambulance. And regardless, I still reach out to you mum, inviting you to come and visit me where Scot will not even be in the room, and dad will not even allow that. You know mum that I have no power to control you and I wouldn’t even try to like how dad is controlling you. Anyways, I tried to reach out so we can see each other again so long its on my terms so I can feel emotionally safe, but you refused to meet me half way.
HONOR YOUR WORD!! PROVIDE ME WITH 5 DIFFERENT DATES AND TIME Options to RESCHEDULE Our VISIT at MY PLACE!
Hi mum, Instead of saying, ‘you cannot come tomorrow ..’, you might have as well said that, “Dad will not allow me to come and see you” … But instead you lie to me and break your word to me. I know dad is behind this and he is controlling things in the background. And mum, you are and always have been dad’s puppet and I am no longer dad’s puppet! And no, Scott DID NOT write this message. I wrote this message 100% myself. I am not Scott’s puppet either! These are my words entirely! And this message is coming from me!
Lets me be Clear, I invited you over here at my place where I felt emotionally safe so we can and you REFUSED to come and see your daughter.
You agreed to come here at 1PM tomorrow. Please honor your agreement. If you cannot keep your agreement to show up tomorrow at 1:00PM, and I’m not asking you to keep your promise to show up tomorrow BUT I EXPECT you to honor your promise to me by giving me a number of alternative dates and times to choose from THAT DO WORK FOR YOU. You made a promise to me! Please keep your promise to me by rescheduling.
And do know that I have kept all my promises with you and Dad and I cannot say the same about you and Dad.
The more times and dates you give me, the more possibilities we have for you to honor the promise you have made to me which you have now broken by attempting to turn this around implying that I have to come to your place to see you when that is not what you agreed to!!
I told you numerous times on my videos and in writing that I WILL NOT BE COMING HOME and then you assume I will break my promise to you by coming over to see you at your place.
And to be clear mother, we will not be meeting tomorrow at any time even if you change your mind after reading this message and now want to go forward with meeting me tomorrow at MY PLACE LIKE YOU AGREED AND now have broken your agreement with me for whatever reason (and I don’t want to hear what the reason is for you cancelling!!) Either you honor your promise or you don’t mother but I have made other plans now for tomorrow based on your last minute promise breaking message.
If you refuse to reschedule, mum, then what that tells me, is that both you and dad don’t care about you keeping your promises to me, you don’t care about my values, you don’t care about my feelings, you don’t care about my needs, you don’t care about what I want, you don’t care about my emotional well-being, you don’t love me unconditionally, you only care about what you can get from me.
I provided you with an opportunity to see your daughter under the conditions where I would feel emotionally safe in my home because like I have told you numerous times, I am terrified of dad and I do not feel emotionally safe to come and see you at your place.
I opened the door so you can see and spend quality time with your daughter, and you just threw that away by allowing dad to control you ahead of your promise you made to me first.
So unless you provide me with alternative times and dates when you can come over here to 10 Lisa, then you will not be seeing your daughter. And this is my decision and my decision alone just like I have been telling you for the past few months, I will not be coming home!
I will say it again, if I become homeless I WILL NOT BE COMING HOME!
Tell dad I received his email and I will not be replying to his email and make it clear to him that I do not want to receive anymore emails from him and I know dad is the reason you have chosen to break your promise to me.
You are dad’s puppet, I am not dad’s puppet anymore, I am not Scott’s puppet and these words in this message is coming entirely from me! All the videos I have sent you and all the messages I sent you to date have come 100% from me!! My Words and My voice without Scott’s influence.
So I will say it again, give me 5 DIFFERENT DATES AND TIMES that work for you, and I will do my best to choose one of them that you provide to me, and if none of the 5 options work for me, then I will provide you with 5 different dates and times until we can confirm one of them, mum
And tell dad, I will not be changing my mind, I will not be coming to see you at your place. If you want to see me, mum, then it will have to be under my terms and conditions, you will have to come here.
I will be blocking you again mum after I send you this message for my own emotional and financial well-being. I have to get back to work and cause money to come in in two weeks, so cannot afford to be further triggered by you or father and have anticipatory anxiety about receiving any upsetting messages from you or dad.
I will be unblocking you again either Wednesday night or Thursday, and the ONLY message response I will be receiving from you is 5 different dates and times to reschedule so you can honor your word to me as you had already agreed to coming to see me at my place – That’s the only message to send me, rescheduling options, NOTHING ELSE!!
This is a very hard truth for me to swallow and very heartbreaking, but I guess I just have to live with the fact that my parents don’t love me and don’t care about me unconditionally like how I love both of you unconditionally. And this is not about money, in fact it has never been about that for me. And I guess this is just something I have to live with that my parents don’t care about my well-being. I am very sorry things have to be this way, but that’s on BOTH OF YOU, NOT ME!
I provided a chance for you to be able to see your daughter again and you Refused!
And just to be clear, Dad is refusing you the freedom to go see your daughter!
I have to go now, BE YOUR WORD MUM!!
PS. Both of You Lied To Me. When father said, “if you need anything, let him know’, I reached out asking for help because of what you told me, and dad’s response was “ I am not in a financial position to help you out with any kind of loan”. You mislead me and gave me false hope - You told me mum that dad said if I need anything to ask, and then I reach out to dad with a request, and he refused to help me in anyway financially, even if it was in a small way. Dad declined to support me in anyway whatsoever financially just like how you allowed your mother to suffer for 8 hours on the floor because you would not spend $500 on an ambulance. And regardless, I still reach out to you mum, inviting you to come and visit me where Scot will not even be in the room, and dad will not even allow that. You know mum that I have no power to control you and I wouldn’t even try to like how dad is controlling you. Anyways, I tried to reach out so we can see each other again so long its on my terms so I can feel emotionally safe, but you refused to meet me half way.
HONOR YOUR WORD!! PROVIDE ME WITH 5 DIFFERENT DATES AND TIME Options to RESCHEDULE Our VISIT at MY PLACE!
MY MESSAGE TO MY MOTHER AND FATHER:
Dear Mum and Dad,
Just a reminder of what Scott told you and father word for word, the last time he came over to see to drop off that 407 transponder in person.
“I want to be absolutely clear with you Fatima - of what I said to Tony when he answered the door - which is the following, “Sameena does not want me to know the status of either yours or Tony’s physical or mental health” BECAUSE any discussions that deal with the status of either yours or Tony’s physical or mental health are dangerous conversational topics which put Sameena at risk of being triggered into her paranoia condition (ie worry, clinically diagnosed anxiety and depression)”
https://youtu.be/lck2Od0-vTU
I do not trust either of you to not break your promises and keep on hurting me.
In fact, mother, when you told me that “dad said, to tell you that if you need anything, you let him know, you broke a promise right there.
I have told you numerous times now mum that I do not want to talk about dad, about dad’s health, or dad in general, or the subject of the vaccine, or the subject of the pandemic in any way.
So, I want you to reflect on THIS message first before I decide to speak with you again. And then in two days or more from now, I MIGHT send you a message telling you when I'm available. And either you are willing to not be controlled by dad and make your own decisions and decide to honor your promise to come and see me at my place during the times I will provide you or you won’t.
But first, you are going to message me confirming (after I decide to unblock you whenever that might be, I don’t know now after what happened with you breaking your promise to come and see me last Sunday) that you absolutely promise you will not talk about dad’s health, you will not talk about dad in any way. You will not talk about the vaccine, and you will not talk about the pandemic or COVID.
If those subjects come up, they will only come up from me which they probably won’t.
But no matter what, we will not be talking about father's physical, emotional or financial health. Do you understand me?
As a reminder, I have a medical diagnosed anxiety disorder that’s way beyond worry, it's paranoia. I can not even know that you're going to tell me how father's doing, good or bad because it triggers anticipatory paranoia in my mind.
No news about father is the best news and the only news I can handle especially knowing you will not help me financially in any way, whatsoever not even in a small way and not even with a loan of any amount as Dad put it in his email.
I am on my own and I now know that more than ever. And you think I have Scott, well, mum, no I don’t got Scott, I AM ON MY OWN!
And I know both you and dad are betting on and hoping that I fail so I lose my home and my business and have to come back to 4 Lisa street because YOU WOULD LOVE THAT, so I can be there and listen to your complains and dad’s pain, and not have any means to make an income for myself and therefore, I can be completely dependent on you.
In fact, the last video I sent to dad, which I would not be surprised if he did not tell you about the video I sent to him - It was the most loving, honest and beautiful video from a daughter to her father, and dad’s short email response to this video was the most cold, ridiculous and inappropriate response a father can give to his child. He might as well have said in his email response to me, “I don’t care about what you need for your survival and happiness, this is not my problem, and when you fail because I don’t believe in you, daughter, I think you are going to fail, then you can always come home so you can suffer with us”…
I made a request of dad, and he blatantly refused, and did not even propose any counter offers. I know a ‘NO’ is a ‘NO’ from dad and he is stuck in his ways and just has to be RIGHT all the time, even when he is not always right. BUT that’s dad.
BUT now, he is also stopping you from coming to see your own daughter!
And for you, the only way I can see you is to come to 4 Lisa, Well THAT IS NOT HAPPENING!
Dad thinks I’m bluffing when I say, if I become homeless I will not be coming to 4 Lisa to live, and I am telling you, now that I know where you and dad stand, and I know you and dad selfishly want me to come back home, and that’s why you will only give me mandazis and maybe food (which by the way cost money), so if you won’t help me out with any sort of a loan, then I can’t in good conscious accept ANYTHING from you or Dad because what’s most important to me, more than eating (and no, I am not eating well, we barely have enough money left for food, but I don’t care about that as mush as paying my rent so I don’t get evicted). I have been drinking more instant coffee from home to save on food just so I would not feel as hungry. But like I said, paying my rent is the most important thing for me as 10 Lisa represents everything to me, and if I lose this place, I am NOT COMING HOME!
I told Scott last week that if we don’t make the rent this month which will lead to an automatic eviction (without a hearing because I have an order against me that if I am even one day late with the rent, I will get evicted right away for sure), then I want to somehow get a gun and end my life and Scott understands what that means, and if I end my life, he would end his life aswell (but I know you don’t care about Scott). And I am sure both of you think I’m only saying this to manipulate you, but we will see, I guess.
Believe what you want to believe. I’ve got to go take care of myself now just like you. But I give you my ABSOLUTE WORD AND PROMISE that I will never ever come back to 4 Lisa street to live even if I should become homeless. And I will NOT BE breaking my promise to you on this one EVER.
And I know dad does not believe me, he thinks if things should fail, I will come home, he is testing me.
In fact, if I become homeless, I will not even be reaching out to you or dad, mum, so you will not even know that I am homeless.
I actually don’t know when I will unblock you again, mum, it may not be till next month sometime, when I can feel safe, I guess, and that is if we don’t get evicted.
And I can’t go through that kind of pain and false hope that you and dad caused for me last weekend by once again, your Actions!
PS. And just a reminder, dad cannot communicate with me or send me any emails as I know any emails from him will not be good and it will only trigger my anxiety and hurt me emotionally and financially. Dad does not want to help his daughter in her most desperate time of need in any way, even in a small way that would contribute to her success and happiness, I can’t understand it, but it is what it is. And just like the rest of the family, my own parents have shut me down. I can expect that from other family members, but I would never in a million years have expected this from my own parents. I love you both unconditionally no matter what, and I will always remember, in my time of desperate need, a time when I needed my parents help and support most, they were NOT there for me in any way whatsoever.
Dear Mum and Dad,
Just a reminder of what Scott told you and father word for word, the last time he came over to see to drop off that 407 transponder in person.
“I want to be absolutely clear with you Fatima - of what I said to Tony when he answered the door - which is the following, “Sameena does not want me to know the status of either yours or Tony’s physical or mental health” BECAUSE any discussions that deal with the status of either yours or Tony’s physical or mental health are dangerous conversational topics which put Sameena at risk of being triggered into her paranoia condition (ie worry, clinically diagnosed anxiety and depression)”
https://youtu.be/lck2Od0-vTU
I do not trust either of you to not break your promises and keep on hurting me.
In fact, mother, when you told me that “dad said, to tell you that if you need anything, you let him know, you broke a promise right there.
I have told you numerous times now mum that I do not want to talk about dad, about dad’s health, or dad in general, or the subject of the vaccine, or the subject of the pandemic in any way.
So, I want you to reflect on THIS message first before I decide to speak with you again. And then in two days or more from now, I MIGHT send you a message telling you when I'm available. And either you are willing to not be controlled by dad and make your own decisions and decide to honor your promise to come and see me at my place during the times I will provide you or you won’t.
But first, you are going to message me confirming (after I decide to unblock you whenever that might be, I don’t know now after what happened with you breaking your promise to come and see me last Sunday) that you absolutely promise you will not talk about dad’s health, you will not talk about dad in any way. You will not talk about the vaccine, and you will not talk about the pandemic or COVID.
If those subjects come up, they will only come up from me which they probably won’t.
But no matter what, we will not be talking about father's physical, emotional or financial health. Do you understand me?
As a reminder, I have a medical diagnosed anxiety disorder that’s way beyond worry, it's paranoia. I can not even know that you're going to tell me how father's doing, good or bad because it triggers anticipatory paranoia in my mind.
No news about father is the best news and the only news I can handle especially knowing you will not help me financially in any way, whatsoever not even in a small way and not even with a loan of any amount as Dad put it in his email.
I am on my own and I now know that more than ever. And you think I have Scott, well, mum, no I don’t got Scott, I AM ON MY OWN!
And I know both you and dad are betting on and hoping that I fail so I lose my home and my business and have to come back to 4 Lisa street because YOU WOULD LOVE THAT, so I can be there and listen to your complains and dad’s pain, and not have any means to make an income for myself and therefore, I can be completely dependent on you.
In fact, the last video I sent to dad, which I would not be surprised if he did not tell you about the video I sent to him - It was the most loving, honest and beautiful video from a daughter to her father, and dad’s short email response to this video was the most cold, ridiculous and inappropriate response a father can give to his child. He might as well have said in his email response to me, “I don’t care about what you need for your survival and happiness, this is not my problem, and when you fail because I don’t believe in you, daughter, I think you are going to fail, then you can always come home so you can suffer with us”…
I made a request of dad, and he blatantly refused, and did not even propose any counter offers. I know a ‘NO’ is a ‘NO’ from dad and he is stuck in his ways and just has to be RIGHT all the time, even when he is not always right. BUT that’s dad.
BUT now, he is also stopping you from coming to see your own daughter!
And for you, the only way I can see you is to come to 4 Lisa, Well THAT IS NOT HAPPENING!
Dad thinks I’m bluffing when I say, if I become homeless I will not be coming to 4 Lisa to live, and I am telling you, now that I know where you and dad stand, and I know you and dad selfishly want me to come back home, and that’s why you will only give me mandazis and maybe food (which by the way cost money), so if you won’t help me out with any sort of a loan, then I can’t in good conscious accept ANYTHING from you or Dad because what’s most important to me, more than eating (and no, I am not eating well, we barely have enough money left for food, but I don’t care about that as mush as paying my rent so I don’t get evicted). I have been drinking more instant coffee from home to save on food just so I would not feel as hungry. But like I said, paying my rent is the most important thing for me as 10 Lisa represents everything to me, and if I lose this place, I am NOT COMING HOME!
I told Scott last week that if we don’t make the rent this month which will lead to an automatic eviction (without a hearing because I have an order against me that if I am even one day late with the rent, I will get evicted right away for sure), then I want to somehow get a gun and end my life and Scott understands what that means, and if I end my life, he would end his life aswell (but I know you don’t care about Scott). And I am sure both of you think I’m only saying this to manipulate you, but we will see, I guess.
Believe what you want to believe. I’ve got to go take care of myself now just like you. But I give you my ABSOLUTE WORD AND PROMISE that I will never ever come back to 4 Lisa street to live even if I should become homeless. And I will NOT BE breaking my promise to you on this one EVER.
And I know dad does not believe me, he thinks if things should fail, I will come home, he is testing me.
In fact, if I become homeless, I will not even be reaching out to you or dad, mum, so you will not even know that I am homeless.
I actually don’t know when I will unblock you again, mum, it may not be till next month sometime, when I can feel safe, I guess, and that is if we don’t get evicted.
And I can’t go through that kind of pain and false hope that you and dad caused for me last weekend by once again, your Actions!
PS. And just a reminder, dad cannot communicate with me or send me any emails as I know any emails from him will not be good and it will only trigger my anxiety and hurt me emotionally and financially. Dad does not want to help his daughter in her most desperate time of need in any way, even in a small way that would contribute to her success and happiness, I can’t understand it, but it is what it is. And just like the rest of the family, my own parents have shut me down. I can expect that from other family members, but I would never in a million years have expected this from my own parents. I love you both unconditionally no matter what, and I will always remember, in my time of desperate need, a time when I needed my parents help and support most, they were NOT there for me in any way whatsoever.